As a Mom sometimes it is just so hard to admit that you are broken. Heart broken, spirit broken (okay, or maybe an emotional basket case!).
This Mom job we have is tough. We have to make decisions on behalf of our children and many times they do not like it…or they HATE it.
We’ve been going through such a time as this lately with our 16 year old. I always have high hopes that by this stage of “almost” adulthood that I don’t have to make too many more decisions for my kids, but then like a thunderstorm that comes out of nowhere and crashes down in the middle of your beautiful picnic an unfortunate decision is made.
All seems ruined, lost and you’re left peering out at the mess it left behind. You wonder, what now?
Time to clean up the mess.
It’s easy to doubt ourselves as Moms, the decisions we make, the way we parent. When we have problems with our kids we wonder where we went wrong, is it our fault?
Was I so busy packing for this beautiful picnic, that I lost sight of checking the weather forecast up ahead?
I’ve been broken lately, really broken. Cleaning up a mess from a storm I feel I should have seen coming but I didn’t! With my background and the amount of children I have, you would think…
Along with all of the holiday hoopla, I have spent an enormous time with the Lord. Seeking His will and His way.
The good thing I’ve discovered about brokenness along that way is that it brings us near to God, if we let it.
I love the part of Laura Story’s Song ~ Blessings, that says:
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?
We need to believe this my sweet Mom friends. We need to believe that God has our best interest at heart AND that He has our children’s best interest at heart. He loves them more than we do.
Even when it hurts.
It’s hard to be a Mom isn’t it?
Although the storm isn’t quite over, I see blue skies peeking out today more than I did yesterday.
The Son is shining somewhere up there…and when the time comes, and I know it will…We will go on another picnic…and, I hope to be more prepared for stormy weather.
Always learning and growing…I hold on to these truths.
“Those who spare the rod of discipline hate their children. Those who love their children care enough to discipline them.”
“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
We must please God and not necessarily our children.
Be blessed today!