Impossible situations. I feel like I have been down this road many times, putting myself into a situation with impossible outcomes. Just when I think I have control…wrong.
I sit at a neighborhood Starbucks and realize God has control. God is always in control.
Deep breath. Tears come and go. I’m listening to Hillsong United’s song “Here Now (Madness)”… “I know you are here now God. Be still my heart and let Your voice be the only voice I hear now.” I’m sitting under a beautiful atrium with the birds singing, watching all types of people head in and out of the Starbucks, when my mind begins to race and I think again: impossible situations.
“What is their impossible situation,” I think, gazing at the strangers around me. Is it a heartache, family issues, children issues, financial issues, business issues, faith issues? Ha—faith issues. Isn’t our truth if we have faith all of these other issues are lessened? God will take away the hurt and work through his grace to help with issues. Right?
In the midst of my multitude of issues, my doctor of fifteen years tells me I have high blood pressure. What? I’m only 45, how could that be possible? Impossible situation. (Well, let’s hope not.) “A life style change is in order,” she tells me, and we will manage with medicine. Ahhh- that is where I think it – medicine…is that is a good idea? It’s a fixer. My mind races…what is high blood pressure anyways? What does that really mean for my crazy single parenthood life filled with the impossible situations?
When something is impossible do you fight for it, or let it go? In my experience, I have fought for it – many times with the Holy Spirit pushing me the other way, saying deep down inside me, “Do not go into this impossible situation it is not God’s will for the outcome you want or will get.”
I take a break from the questions swirling in my mind and look around the Starbucks. Many people are on their phones or having conversations with friends. Saturday business meetings are taking place and a sweet, kind lady sits down after a long run to enjoy her coffee and give me a much needed smile. Little blessings always happening when you stop and look for them. Take this fainted heart, take these tainted hands, wash me in your love and come around here grace again…Hillsong is still singing these words, now very loudly, through my earbuds. Only sing your praise…
Are you curious what my impossible situation is today? Today it is dealing with a broken relationship that only God’s hand can fix. What are His plans? What will He do now? These thoughts spin through my mind as I keep Him at the center of the relationship. Are my words coming from the heart of the Holy Spirit? Unselfish and kind? What is my broken-hearted friend feeling? My hope is he is taking the necessary time to heal.
We all have our own impossible situations, all of us in this Starbucks on this Saturday morning, and all of you reading this right now. I know I don’t have the control, but I’m so glad that God does, for He reigns sovereign over any situation that may seem impossible to my human eyes.